Today is my second first day of high school,
except this time I will be on the proverbial “other side of the desk.” Actually, strike that.
First off, I never sit at my desk (literally or figuratively), as we are all learners in the room….I guess that makes me the “Lead Learner,” Google-style. Hey, they should make a Gangnam Style remix to that. Sorry…4 am.
Secondly, the students don’t arrive until next Tuesday, meaning this day of inservice is more like freshman orientation. However, let’s not get too technical 🙂 For the purposes of this blog post, we will revisit how my first day of high school went, almost exactly 20 years ago, and see if maybe I can glean any wisdom from that day. Hooray for diaries! OMG, this feels like such an invasion of privacy, but I think 13-year-old me would forgive Now me, because she’d think this was awesome.
Here we go. Original comments in italics. (P.S. I will try to stay authentic and give all of the juicy details, but I’m leaving out names to protect the innocent. Any typos were in the original.)
Day: Tuesday/Wednesday Date: 9-5-95/9-6-95
I can’t sleep.
The more things change, the more they stay the same.
Today/Yesterday/the fifth was my first day of High School at W.P. I woke up at 2 a.m. I just walked around the house and read books to take my mind off things.
Thank God for WiFi.
I was nervous, but I didn’t realize it until now. I got dressed around 4:30 and woke Mom up at 6:15 like she had asked. I was on my way at 6:23. There were two kids from my bus stop there
all already and 3 from Deer Run going to some other school. I started biting my nails that I had carefully grown since August.
What a waste.
What a waste.
The bus came at 6:35. I got on and sat in the front. Crazy thoughts were running through my head about what could possibly happen. I pictured being hung from the pullup bar by mean seniors, being shot, being beaten up, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera.
Oh, the drama lol. Some of my kids may feel like this Tuesday. I should be ready for that.
We picked up the next stop. Kelly sat in front of me. We talked for a while and I felt better.
Kelly is still the voice of reason, by the way. Shoutout to Kelly! Woot!
That feeling, however, only lasted for a couple of minutes. The feeling of dread and lonliness returned after a while and worsened by the time we got nearer to the school. We were at the stop light near my alma mater, Groveton Elementary. I must have passed out or something, because next thing I knew, we were on Quander Road.
So much drama!
I decided to go back to sleep, but before I could shut my eyes, people were getting off the bus. I hopped off and started walking to Geometry. Mr. S***** showed up after what felt like 2 decades and unlocked the door.
Note to self: don’t be late on Tuesday.
We sat down. The bell tolled, then another about 5 minutes later. Well, actually it was more like an annoying tone. It gave me a headache. Mr. S****** has a loud voice, so my headache worsened and I thought I was going to puke. I was glad when that class was over. Not because I was bored, but because I was getting dizzy. Oh yeah, the boys.
Seriously? Note to self: this will probably also be on my students’ minds. Also, don’t be loud, in case any of my students are prone to drama…or blogging. Sorry, back to the good stuff.
When the first two walked in, one was butt and one was ok. I gave him suttle hints that I was interested.
Like what? Sarah, we need all the deets! *takes out notepad*
We made eye contact and he winked and smiled. I smiled back even though I felt crummy. I must have looked like a rabied dog about to attack, because when I fake a smile, especially to a boy, I show all of my teeth.
Totally #relatable, young Sarah.
It drives some of them wild (really?), and others it would if I were better looking (aww, don’t make me travel back in time and sing Christina Aguilera songs at us). I looked like a vampire today.
Whatever that means.
Well, back to the boys in 1st block. When the first one walked in, I fell head over heels for him. (LOL!) He just had crooked teeth. Major bummer for kissing, I would say. (Spoiler alert: Stop being so judgy, you’re going to wish you got those braces back then, yourself!)
I forgot about him when the last dude walked into the classroom. He seemed cool and confident. I liked his attitude. Plus, he was a sophomore.
I seriously do not remember dude #2. I remember dude #1, though. Thanks, Facebook!
I went to second block chorus. There is not much to tell. There are no guys (cute ones, that is) and the guy talks a lot.
Ha! This ended up being one of my all-time favorite teachers. I guess perceptions change.
Next class was Biology. I was fashionably early for class. My headache had cleared a tiny bit so that I could concentrate at least. I paid attention to what the teacher said. (LOL notice what I gloss over, and what I write about in great detail.) We got out of class and I went to lunch.
I sat with D***** and T******* and some other kids. J**** came to sit with me. After they all left, I went to sit with A********. (Who are these people? Just kidding lol.) J****** and D***** came too. We all left when that annoying tone sounded and I went to gym. It sucked.
I hated gym. I find this article to have mirrored my general experience. Wish that I had physical education teachers like the ones in my PLN!
We left. I found my bus and we went home.
Interesting! We have a similar block schedule at my new school, too!
I talked to Kelly. I got off the bus. I walked home, did my homework, talked on the phone, watched T.V., helped dad, went to bed at 10, am still not asleep now at 12:45 pm, will have to wake up at 5:30, and tomorrow will probably suck too. Joy to the world. I will write again today/Tomorrow/the 6th. I’ll try to get some sleep.
Looking back, I don’t think it sucked as much as I thought. It seems like a fairly normal day, with lots of self-imposed drama, excitement, friends, and of course, boys.
This was very informative! It was like historical research in a way, haha. Take-aways:
- Many of the students may be feeling nervous on Tuesday when they come back. High school is new territory…major leagues to them. Be ready to help them make this transition.
- My neighborhood friends, and people I met in middle school, helped me get through the day. Some of my students won’t have this network, being at a magnet school. Allow them some time to socialize and build alliances during class…but not in a forced, awkward way. I don’t think I would have liked that much. Instead, I think a DigCit Edcamp will be a good go-to, with the optional backchannel.
- Bring the heat! That first day, I was very hard on my teachers. I had a very bad academic experience the year before, so I was entering high school with a sour taste in my mouth. It took a long time to shake this. I realize that some kids may enter with their own baggage (far heavier than even that), so I will try to be ready to take some weight off their shoulders. I need to establish from the get-go that we are on the same team, and will exert as much effort for them as they should exert for themselves.
I’m sure these aha moments will continue to slap me in the face as I think about it. Maybe tonight, I’ll write an entry in the same diary, as I have done on occasion. To my PLN, any tips for this freshman? Please chime in on the comments 🙂 Thanks!